I'm tired of idiots

A long time ago I had a fight with a friend, I wanted to settle down in the US and she thought that the country was the den of iniquity, with pre-marital sex and other “sinful” activities. I, being brought up on a steady diet of cartoons, novels, TV serials like Small Wonder and parental advice thought that the streets in US are paved in gold.
Now I’m 23 and I look back on that day and think I was a fool. Not that I feel that it is a den of iniquity like my friend but because I feel it is a very narrow minded country, a country which has failed to keep up with the times and a country whose people have little or no idea about the outside world.
Many of you maybe surprised because I call it a narrow minded country, strong words from a person whose country “burns widows” , but I have no other words to describe a country which still debates abortion ( a basic choice I feel every woman should have), whether or not to teach their kids the Theory of Evolution, whether a woman can hold any important role in the government and where they have weird things like Purity Balls where girls as young as 14 (an age when you still don’t know right from wrong) pledge in front of their fathers (in a very freaky wedding like situation) to remain virgins until they marry.
They say we consider our women to be second class citizens, I disagree, true, gender bias is one of the most rampant social evils in our country and women do not feel safe, but tell me are they safe in US?? Are they not molested, teased, harassed?? Are they not shoved into polygamous sects?? If women in our country are 2nd class citizens then why have we been given the right to vote since our democracy came into being?? Why have we had a woman Prime Minister, President and a Vice President?? We’ve had minorities taking office in our country (we’ve been ruled by Sikhs, Muslims and Hindus) in a democracy that is only 60 years old while 400 year old democracies still debate about a black president (the only minority contender so far). Their woman VP candidate is a joke. She has 5 kids!! 5 can you imagine?? (Ok Rabri has 9 but she isn’t standing for VP). One of the kids is 17 and is pregnant!! What joy!!! She can’t control her kids and wants to control the country!! And she is against abortion (I can guess why, after having 5 kids I’m sure she wants other women to feel just as miserable...)
Did I also tell you they are hypocrites in the bargain?? No?? Lets see… Now you see the only idea the West has about Muslim women is that they all wear burqas and that is a very medieval concept… Married Jewish women however can wear sheitels and no one says a thing.. A sheitel is a wig worn by an Orthodox Jewish woman who is married because the only one who can see her natural hair is her husband. Some even shave off all their hair so that not a single strand is seen. Those who do not wear wigs wear scarves and caps and other stuff to keep their hair covered. That’s ok… Let a Muslim woman wear a burqa and poor her… What a horrible religion!!
They have no idea about the world they live in. Oh in India we all ride elephants and work on our laptops on them, yeah we have arranged marriages with the Great Indian Rope Trick for entertainment and besides when the poor bloke dies we toss his wifey in to the pyre, all this while being vegetarians and having cows roam the street. Yes, I do know quite a few people who were asked the questions to the above answers. Oh and the only other things about India are Kamasutra and Taj Mahal. They come to our country in droves, do drugs and die, travel in 3rd class compartments and complain about the filth, stay in seedy hotels and complain about the filth and all that they can do is complain. Makes me wonder why they come here in the first place. Oh and if you do like India wear Indian clothes. Not the normal ones the Indians wear but weird versions which look like pajamas. Top it off with a couple of bindi/henna tattoos, a dash of kohl and you’re done!!
And read any American’s blog on a visit to India. They are always surprised at the amount of English we speak!! And how much we know of other cultures, and if they ever meet an educated Indian (as once in a blue moon thing since they seem to hang around rickshaw pullers and street urchins) they will be astonished about the fact that the Indian knows about Western music, books and movies.
I know it sounds like a sad rant but I’ve just encountered too many idiots in the last few days… Primary of them being Mike of Where The Hell Is Mike.
As for my childhood dream of settling down there… Forget it!! I prefer getting a newspaper at my place, getting my hair cut in a parlor, calling a plumber or a maid and cable TV.

SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's 1:47 am, I'm still awake and having a panic attack..
No I do not have exams tomorrow or some important thing to do.. It's just that I just realised that my life is over... No stupid, I'm not dying (Though a lot of ppl may just b praying for such a momentous occasion).. I just realised I've grown up now, in another 10 months I may (and I stress on the MAY, becos i dnt knw who will hire me!!) have a job and I'll actually have to go to work of all things.. Never will I be able to bunk again, no more waking up at 3 in the afternoon.. I'll have a 9 to 5 job and I'm totaly freaking out... Where did my life go?? I miss college.. what about all those freaky things one does when in college?? what about those late night parties??
I've not even been to a disc for God's sake.. I cnt become a drone now!!! I mean I still got to do a whole lot of things.. For eg

• Go to a disc..
• Do tequila shots
• Go to Goa w/o parental consent
• Have a blast
• Have a road trip
• Stay out the whole night
• Get a tattoo
• Learn any Latin American dance (pref. tango) with Rajit
• Bunk some more
• Do reckless and irresponsible things which can be done only be free ppl..

I know this sounds immature and childish and I sound like a lazy slob, but my life feels incomplete now.. It craves adventure.. It craves new experiences.. I am unable to reconcile myself to a 9 to 5 job.. there is so much i want to do.. and so little time.. Maybe I've got Gypsy genes.. Maybe that's I have this craving to travel.. To look beyond the horizon.. To go somewhere.. For who knows whats waiting out there????

My Dilemma

Penny sent me a pic today.. contains my name on a farewell sheet in LIBA. That, coupled with the facts that if I hadn’t “screwed up” as ppl tell me I’d be finishing my studies and hopefully getting a job and late night orkutting sessions on viewing old frnds photo albums online, has made me feel retrospective. Was it right to have lazed around and done nothing and have my anger take the best of me?? Were my parents right that I could have had a better life and opportunities if I’d have gone back or hadn’t left in the 1st place?
Some part of me says, “Yes, you did let your anger towards your parents get the best of you. You could have just worked harder and hung around for another year, how hard could it be??” Just sometimes I feel maybe they were right.
But then I think of the past year and the new things I’ve done and experienced, all the new places I’ve seen, the people I’ve met and befriended, then I realize that this would not have been possible without leaving LIBA. 3 foreign countries in a year?? That would have seriously been impossible in my former life. Even the pleasure of seeing Rajit daily would have been a dream. And I certainly do not miss the stress and the anger which I just could not let go off. As I’ve told Ma Baba, “It maybe shit but it is my shit” maybe the feeling of being forced was so strong, maybe I would’ve stuck on if I didn’t feel that way. So many maybes, and no chance to find out if they would’ve ever been true. Chalo koi baat nai.. life goes on and I’ve moved on and I’ve my share of blessings and curses too. If I’m happy I’m unhappy too… and if I’ve lost I’ve gained too… though the only things I’ve seemed to lose is according to other ppl, opportunities, and life is full of them and it is a very very long life. What I’ve gained is a better sense of me, a feeling of fitting in, friends, a lot less lonely life, Rajit, experience and I’ve matured too. So I haven’t lost much really and gained a lot. Thank you for listening. My dilemma is now solved.